Monday, May 17, 2010

Postive thinking...

The sun is finally out. Went out for a few minutes and sat on my swing in the front yard. It is amazing what the sun can do for your mental state of mind.

I haven't been putting the time in my family blog since I started my WW blog. Sorry. So I thought I would at least do a short entry today.

Been having such a hard time excepting the fact that I am not able to do anything because of my stupid foot. I can't even go tanning. I tried to get a refund on my pass that I spent $50.00 on and they said "NO sorry but you used it more than once and you got your money's worth." Yeah right it was unlimited and HOW do they know I got my money's worth? They just lost a customer. Oh well. So this should be interesting on how I am going to get an even tan. Guess I wont be going to the pool this summer. I just hope I can get better before my vacation plans and the concerts I have planned for this summer.

After working so hard to look better and now this! Oh well that's the story of my life... Should not come to me as a BIG surprise. Chin up and stay focused on the positive is what I keep hearing. What a easy thing to say when it's not YOU living the disappointments.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Wants some WINE with that cheese?

Made it through another Mothers Day. My family is so awesome. Clay got my new 2 wheel bike. It's a Street Cruiser made by Schwinn (it's even RED who knew!) and Kayla got me the cutest card along with Sugarland's CD. I love my bike but the fact I can't ride it, because of my foot, stinks! Whining!

Having my foot injured is really jamming my life up. I can't even go shopping cause I can't drive. Clay's birthday is coming up and NO present yet. I missed my dear friends birthday too. I know they understand but it still doesn't make me any happier. Whining!

I can't exercise which is a real bummer too. I was doing so good. I hope that after I heal, I won't have to start all over with my progress. My weight loss is at a stand still which is making me mad. I have way too many things that I need to do and having this injuring is a "royal pain in my butt". Whining!

I know I am being a big baby about this foot thing. But when I was in the wheel chair because of my MS, at least I wasn't in this much pain. Being in the chair isn't the worst thing; its the fact I can't hop out of it to walk a couple of steps. Whining!

I know this too will pass. But in the mean time I am going to try not to whine so much. It could be worse right? I should be counting my blessings not focusing on the bad. Oh well that's just how I deal with things. I am a WORK IN PROGRESS.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Bah Hum Bug!

Yes today is Mother's Day. So big deal. I HATE Mother's Day and everything it stands for. Who really is that PERFECT MOTHER? I don't need to be reminded that I failed on so many levels as that facade of the "Perfect Mother". Don't get me wrong I love being a mother/grand mother and having a mother, just not the celebration of being one!

See I really hate the fact that it is like we are promoting the idea of this "PREFECT" mother. The June Cleavers, Betty Crockers, Mary Poppins of the world, etc... (You get the idea). When in reality there is a very very small number of women who actually fit the mold.

It really makes me sick to my stomach to listen to ALL the "wonderful" things that these so called PERFECT MOTHERS have done. And how "wonderful" their kids have turned out. "Well good for you is what I want to say to them."

And what about the fact that they would DO IT all over again. Are you kidding me! I wouldn't do it unless I could do it better the second time around. Like the saying goes "If I knew THEN what I know NOW". But that ain't going happen!

The overwhelming guilt to be THAT "mother" is what I hate the most. Why is it that on Father's Day you don't see guilt riddin' father's? Is it cause men don't get the guilt feelings like women do? Cause it surely isn't the fact that they have the whole "PERFECT FATHER" thing down.

And don't even get me started with all the MONEY that is centered around this holiday. Why does it take a holiday to be recognized on trying to be the best you know how? Whether it is a mother/father (Mother's Day/Father's Day) or a spouse (Valentine's Day).

So now that I got that off my chest. Happy Mother's Day to all the women out there that aren't PERFECT!